Resonance: Chapter One

    Graham Smith locked the Post Room door, turning the key clockwise as far as it would go. He paused, counting his breaths - one, two - then turned the key counter-clockwise. Another pause, more breaths, it had to be four this time, four was good, all even numbers were but four especially so. He repeated the procedure, action for action, breath for breath. Lock, unlock; breathe and count. Twice with the right hand and twice with the left. Only then could he leave work, satisfied that the door was indeed locked and all was well with the world.

    Not that it would be for long. You can’t create a world in seven days without cutting corners.

    “Are you going to the Princess Louise tonight?”

    A woman’s voice. Anne from Small Businesses? He didn’t turn to find out, he knew the question wasn’t for him. People didn’t talk to Graham Smith unless they had to. Or they were new. Before someone took them aside for a friendly chat, thinking themselves out of earshot, thinking that just because someone was quiet they must be deaf as well. But he’d heard them, heard the whispered warnings by the coffee machine. Don’t bother with Graham, he’ll never answer. I’ve worked here fifteen years and never got a word out of him. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not dangerous or anything. Just weird. Weird but harmless.

    The woman brushed past, not giving Graham a second look as he turned and dropped the Post Room key into his jacket pocket. He’d been right. It had been Anne, now deep in conversation with the new girl from personnel, planning their night out, eyes flashing, words dancing between them. Conversation came so easily to some people. A tap they could turn on and off without ever worrying what would come spewing out. 

    Something Graham Smith had never mastered. He’d barely spoken since his ninth birthday and that was twenty-four years ago. 

    He followed them into the lobby, watched as they waved to Andy at the door, barely breaking sentence as they wished him a good night and pushed through onto the pavement outside.

    Graham carefully placed the Post Room key on the reception desk with his right hand - Mondays were always right-handed days - and smiled towards the guard’s left shoulder. Eye contact was unlucky whatever the day.

    He stepped outside, blinking into the early summer evening. London on a sunny day in June - bright summer clothes, red buses and black taxis. Noise and bustle all around.

    He turned right, striding out along the pavement, matching his step to the paving stones, assiduously avoiding the cracks.

    Don’t step on the cracks - everyone knew the sense of that. One of the first things you learned as a child. But too many people forgot. Or didn’t care. Graham Smith cared. He knew that paving stones set the cadence of a street; that cracks regulated the stride length and set the resonance that kept everything stable and harmonious. Step on the cracks and the street slipped out of kilter. Imperceptibly at first. Minute changes around the edges, a new person living at number thirty-three, a strange car outside number five. Step on the cracks too often and … well, anything could happen. He’d seen houses turned into blocks of flats overnight. Parades of shops come and go. Terraces demolished, office blocks erected. All overnight when no one was looking.

    The world was a far more fragile place than people realised. And every now and then a thread would work loose and something or someone would unravel.

    A cloud of diesel smoke spilled out from a bus revving away from its stop. Graham stepped diagonally to avoid it, stretching three pavers over. A few steps more and he had to change lanes again, the pavement filling with commuters and tourists. He sidestepped, jumped and picked his way through the crowd. One eye on his feet and one a few paving stones ahead, searching out the next obstacle.

    Which was when he saw her.

    She was walking in front of him - four paving stones ahead. Four paving stones exactly, her feet studiously avoiding the cracks, just like Graham. Except that she didn’t have to dart back and forth to avoid the other pedestrians - they moved aside for her. He watched, fascinated, as a group of men split apart to let her pass, turning as they did so, their eyes scanning every inch of her, their attention wandering so much that Graham had to side-step quickly to avoid a collision.

    The young woman walked on, indifferent, not looking left nor right.

    Graham was fascinated. She flowed along the road, cat-like, not walking so much as dancing with the street, her feet matching perfectly the rhythm of the pavement.

    Who was she?

    And why hadn’t he seen her before? He walked this road every day, always at the same time. Was she a tourist? He could see no telltale sign. No camera, no map, not even a bag. Her hands swung loose by her side. Elegant hands, long and slim, like her. Everything about her resonated elegance … except … except now that he looked closer he could see that her clothes were dirty - her short brown dress looked like it had been slept in for weeks. Or was that the fashion these days? And her hair was badly dyed, a metallic red streaked with black … or was that dirt?

    He followed her, couldn’t take his eyes off her, as she cut a swathe through the packed pavement. He watched her from her long, bare legs to her streaky, tousled top. She was like a sinuous metronome, clicking out an unchanging beat, looking straight ahead and not deviating an inch.

    Something else caught his eye. What was that above her right ankle? A bruise? No, a tattoo. Something in blue. He quickened his pace, he had to know everything about this girl. He closed the distance between them to three paving slabs, two. He could almost make it out. A bird? Yes, a bird. A tattoo of a blue bird.

    He was so engrossed he almost missed his tube station. The entrance loomed on his right like a deep, dark tunnel. The girl walked on. Graham hovered by the entrance, hoping she’d stop or turn.

    She didn’t.

    He had a choice. To take the tube like every other day … or follow the girl. Curiosity begged him to follow, instinct said no - he had a routine, routines had to be followed, not girls.

    He looked one way and then the other. He couldn’t decide. He watched her bobbing head disappearing into the crowd, he peered into the shadow of the foyer; the turnstiles, the ticket machines. He looked back.

    She’d gone.

    Forty minutes later, Graham was counting the paces as he walked between the post-box on the corner to the near gate-post of his home at number thirty-three. A ritual he’d started four years ago when he’d first moved to Oakhurst Drive. A ritual that demanded he arrive exactly on the sixty-sixth step. Sixty-sixth step, left foot, no room for error or bad things were certain to follow.

    Fifty-five, fifty-six, he passed next-door’s laburnum dead on schedule, his feet rising and falling on the dusty grey tarmac. A light wind kept him company, swirling eddies of sweet wrappers around his feet.

    He arrived at the gate exactly on the sixty-sixth step, his left toe precisely in line with the inner edge of the gate-post. He turned, swivelling on the ball of his left foot, unlatched the gate with his right hand and walked through. Two steps and turn, breathe and reach, he took the gate in his left hand and swung it gently back and forth - once, twice, three times - then let it close.

    He listened for the latch to click shut then gave it a gentle tug to check with his right-hand - it was a Monday - then, satisfied, turned, relaxed and ambled - not even bothering to count the steps - to the door of his pre-war pebble-dashed semi-detached house.

    He was home.

    Another day safely negotiated.

    He took out his key and pushed it into the lock.

    It wouldn’t turn.

    He tried again.

    It still wouldn’t turn.

    He tried with his left hand, both hands. He took the key out, counted to four and tried again.

    Nothing.

    Was it stuck? Was it …

    A sudden intake of breath. Not again. Not so soon. He’d been so careful this time!

    A muffled sound came from inside the house. Footsteps on the stairs, someone coming down, someone inside his house, the house he shared with no one, the house no one ever visited.

    A shape appeared, distorted by the frosted glass door. A woman’s voice on the other side, nervous, uncertain.

    “Is that you, Rob?”

    Graham froze, his hand still clutching the key in the lock. It was happening again.

    The shape filled the glass door, he could make out a hand moving towards the latch.

    “Who’s there?” The voice was louder this time, a hint of panic. Graham withdrew the key, trying to be quiet, trying to keep calm while he backed away from the door. It began to open, he turned, ran, fumbled with the gate, forced himself through.

    A voice came from the doorstep. “Who are you? What do you want?”

    He ran, flying along the pavement, his breaths coming short and fast, his lungs burning, his eyes watering with the strain. And this time he didn’t count or care where he stepped. It was too late for that.

    Bad things had already happened.